"This girl shivers and crawls under the covers with all her clothes on and falls into an overdue library book, a faerie story with rats and marrow and burning curses. The sentances build a fence around her, a Times Roman 10-point baracade, to keep the thorny voices in her head from getting too close."

Friday, January 28, 2011

oh! random rant and webcam photos.

so i have been quite bummed the whole day.
i start college on monday...after almost 3 months of being on holiday (well, working too) i feel as if it's come to an abrupt end.
and i wish i could be excited about starting college (i'm in third year now)
i'm sadly not.
the only things that are keeping me sane at the thought of going back is:
a) my best friend, Lisa.
b) my new bag for my college goodies.
c) there are some thrift stores close to where my college is situated...so during free periods (and if i haven't got work to do) you will be sure to find me at one of them.

now if you don't know already...i am studying to be a teacher.
for little kids:p
Grade R to Grade 3.
don't get me wrong i ADORE what i am studying.
but at times...the course can leave one feeling a tad unstimulated.
i get that we have to learn about kids stuff...but does it mean that one has to get excited EVERY TIME we are taught to make a paper fan or cup (i mean...honestly)
and (sorry! this is such a rant!) what annoys me the most at the college i go to is that our class is really small and it's ONLY girls.
so you can imagine the kitty claws coming out.
but really...i highly dislike the fact that some people in my class think they actually "KNOW" me JUST because we're in the same class.
it's like, "lets put Jade in a box without really knowing anything of substance about her"
i found this happens quite a lot.
especially if you don't have a "normal" style when it comes to clothes/hair.
and little do they know...that the reason i have such a loud mouth at times is because i'm actually REALLY shy when it comes to people i don't know that well (no really, it's taken 3 years for my boyfriend to REALLY know me...and he still says at times i'm TOO QUIET...imagine that) and i kind of use it as a "cover up"...which i need to stop.
i'm like one of those comedians that are actually shy when not on stage.
ANYWAYS...off the topic here:0
i just...want an invisibility cloak so i can go to class and get what needs to be done, done.
and then go home to my Patricia Cornwell novels, Dexter series, boyfriend cuddles and my kitty cat.
ho hum.

are any of you studying something?
if so, do you enjoy your class as much as i do?
promise this is the only rant for the month...must say, made me feel much better ^^

to end this post...here are some silly photos Lourens and i took with the webcam:)

i love him so much.
my best friend.
my boyfriend.
my future husband.
my curly-haired bearded bunch of awesomeness.


  1. D'awww. Cute pictures!
    And don't worry too much about the girls in your class. One can only hope you just won't have to see them again after you've finished school, right? That's always what I have to remind myself.

  2. thanks love!
    gosh, except for my actual friends at college i really hope not to run into anybody else after i graduate.
    the teaching world is so small though...
    have a lovely weekend!

  3. i agree with sonya...don't worry about them...there are so not worth your time. you are much more amazing then they will every know...you are beautiful, smart and will make a great teacher! don't worry, school will be over before you know it!

    i love your hair blond too by the way :)

    chin up sweetness!


  4. you are SO wonderful cb<3
    thank you for your kind words.
    they mean so much to me.
    hope you're having a wonderful weekend.

  5. I wish we were closer
    <3 you

  6. Hi sweets.
    Lovely pictures of you and your husband-to-be :)
    I feel the same way about college sometimes. Two girls in my art class who I am closest to were really grumpy to me the other day.
    Ok, fair enough they were 'tired' from being up all night prepping for our art assessment but that didn't mean they should be super snappy and harsh to me just because i 'was in a good mood'.
    Wish people were just always nice!!
    Missed chatting to you! I hope you're well xxxxx

  7. People I work with are like that! I moved to the town I live in to be with my boyfriend and I don't really fit in and because people can't really work me out, they just ignore me or think I'm weird! x